The best Easter ever

Today... SARAH AND I GOT ENGAGED! I popped the question at approximately 7:30 AM. I tied the ring around our dog Lady's neck and sent her in to wake Sarah up. She didn't wake up right away so I had to help. She looked and me and asked "What?" So I pointed to the ring tied to Lady and asked her to marry me. She said yes, and we're completely ecstatic!

That is all for now. :)

You are my sweetest downfall

I find it incredible that there are so many people out there who don't give a shit about anyone but themselves.

My lover recently befriended a guy she knew a while back. All good intentions were had, and everything was kosher. At first, I was a little uncomfortable with her being so close with another guy, but eventually I accepted it. I figured, I want her to have great close friends to talk to and confide in on some things she might not be able to do so with me. I trust her to the end of the Earth and back, so I know she had the right intentions.

Come to find out, this guy basically had the idea in his head that they were going on a date together. That he was "riding the wave" and that if she needed some "space" she could have it. WHAT?! Dude, this girl is happily taken in a serious relationship and has been for over a year. Because she's your friend, you feel like she's opening the door for you?

What I really think is the case, is that he was hoping things weren't so great between her and I and he could weasel his way in. Guess what man, she has morals. She cares about the guy she's with because I take care of her. She wouldn't throw her world away spending her days with a guy like you, who tries to slime his way into her panties.

Just had to rant about that. Some people...

Day Ten: One Confession

The first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of before I go to sleep is just how lucky I am to be able to share my life with my beautiful Sarah.

Day Nine: Two Smilies That Describe Your Life Right Now

1) :-D

2) :-O

Day Eight: Three Turn Ons

1) If I'm being honest, one of the three is definitely her looks. Her flawless body, beautiful eyes, gorgeous smile, perfect hair, sexy tattoos, and all of it.

2) Honesty - to me and others. I love a girl who's not afraid to truly tell me how she feels, and doesn't let the world get the best of her.

3. Shared excitement about life.

Day Six: Four Turn Offs

1. Lying, cheating, stealing. Don't.

2. Constant negativity. I'm a firm believer in if you don't like something, do what you can to change it. If you can't change it, accept it and move on.

3. Constant hatred. It's okay to hate some things, but overall it's very unattractive.

4. Being secretive. I'm a very open person. You should be too.

Day Six: Five People Who Mean A Lot (In No Particular Order)

1. Sarah Beth Camp. My world. The one I want to share the rest of my life with.

2. Mom, Dad, Mary, and Joe. The best parents and step parents ever.

3. Leah, Lauren, and Tyler. My sisters and brother. I have a blast any time I'm with any of them.

4. Noah DeCarlo. My dude!

5. All of the HB dudes.

Day Five: Six Things You Wish You'd Never Done

1. Pretending that I dated a girl who was the biggest mistake ever.

2. Getting a tattoo for that same mistake.

3, 4, 5, and 6. 1 and 2 again.

Day Four: Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot

1. Sarah. Everything and anything about her. She's my entire world, and thus my thoughts usually involve her.

2. Work. My business involves me constantly taking phone calls, taking to finance companies, helping out salespeople, and working with customers. I'm usually thinking about what needs to be done next.

3. Food and drinks. Seriously.

4. Music. Playing it, listening to it, writing it.

5. Buying a house. It's something I've ALWAYS wanted to do. I almost bought one years ago, but luckily for me (although I didn't know it then), I had a bad thing on my credit that stopped me.

6. Yellow cars.

7. My family. I wish I was around then more often.

Day Three: Eight Ways To Win Your Heart

1. Be yourself. If I'm spending my (short and valuable) free time with you, it's because I want to be with YOU, not some person pretending to be someone I want to be around.

2. Be honest. Lying and dishonesty will instantly make me hate you.

3. Don't keep too many secrets from me. A few is okay, but again, if you're the person I'm sharing my life with, I want to know as much of you as I can, because chances are you'll know all of me.

4. Compliment me when you can, but only if you mean it.

5. Tell me when I'm doing something wrong or something that you don't like. It might bum me out for a second, but then chances are I'll do everything I can to fix it.

6. Sit on the couch with me watching tv or movies. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it's one of my favorite things to do. It's calming and just takes my brain away from the chaos that my life usually is.

7. Talk to me about the future. What you want it to be, what I want it to be, and what it will be like together.

8. Eat with me. I LOVE to eat.

Day Two: Nine Things About Yourself

Oh God, how do I come up with nine things...

1. I have a love/hate relationship with music. One day I'm completely in love with everything about music. The next I can't find a single song I want to listen to. One day I would kill to go to a solid show like the ones I went to when I was a kid. The next day shows make me want to stab myself in the eye with a spoon.

2. I am insanely passionate about business and personal finance. It's not even a money thing. I think it's more of a competitive spirit/seeing something grow kind of thing. It's just incredible to be able to take something and build it.

3. I am head over heels madly in love with a girl who just over a year ago I never thought I'd get the opportunity to confess my feelings for.

4. I go from super confident to self-conscious about 30 times a day.

5. I am very much a Dave Ramsey fan. I have almost all of his books, financial peace university, etc. I listen to his podcasts. I go to his events. Love it.

6. There are about a bazillion things I want to learn to do. Dance, snowboard, golf.

7. My obsession with energy drinks and soda is probably the most unhealthy thing I've EVER had.

8. I like wearing dress clothes much more than casual clothes. I just feel more confident and occasionally sexy in them.

9. I've eaten Taco Bell about 980432748798 times, thanks to tour.

Day One: Ten Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People Right Now

1. You are the best thing that's EVER happened to me.

2. I wish we hung out more often.

3. I truly hope you don't regret your decision.

4. You better do well.

5. Please don't take everything.

6. You've become my best friend, and you'll never know how much I appreciate that.

7. You should probably get back to me, it's super unprofessional that you're not.

8. Get your product in my belly.

9. You're ridiculously adorable and I love the hell out of you.

10. Hurry up and get here so we can leave!

Go listen to Greene Reveal

I am so beyond lucky to have an amazing understanding girlfriend. In the wake of such stupidity on my part, she's been so wonderful about it all.

They're buried inside a box under the stairs

I fucked up the other day. I had one thought and intention in my head and what came out of my mouth turned out to be hurtful and ignorant. Very VERY few things in my life do I regret. This is one of those things. If I had the choice to go back and take the words out of existence and forget their very meaning I would. But I can't. And now, because of how inconsiderate I can be, the love of my life is hurting. She hurts every day because I'm too stupid to realize the weight of my words. I only meant to mention something to demonstrate my unprovoked insecurity, but it ended up causing pain.

So now I'm left with this: what's done is done and I can't go back and change it. So all I can do is be thoroughly grateful that she's chosen to stick with me, even with what I've done. Even with the hurt she endures daily. Even with the fact that I can't tell her I love her, or think she's beautiful, or want nothing more than to share every moment of my life with her, without it bringing up ideas that those words aren't hers.

I wish I could give her even the slightest sense of how intense my love for her is. I would trade anything for her to know that she's the only one who gets my love. The only one I could even dream of spending each and every day of my life with. And that she alone is the love of my life.

I feel incredibly heartbroken right now, and I just have to give her time.

Holy bored

I am super bored right now. Work is obnoxiously slow. My people are all out in the field trying their damndest. I've got no appointments. It's driving me nuts. That's all, just wanted to rant for eight point five seconds.

Things and more things

Hello old blog of mine. It's been a long time. I've been away spending my life full of love, business, smiles, and insanity. Things have been turned upside down in so many ways, both positive and negative. Where to start...

Let's start with the obvious and ongoing most significant piece of my life - my other half. The love of my life, my world, my joy, my reason to smile every day - Sarah. Things with us are just as I always hoped they'd be. We've experienced more and more of what our life is and could be together and we've fallen further in love with that life. Our apartment is wonderful. We've re-arranged the living room a few times and I think we found just the arrangement that works. Unfortunately, our roommate is moving out at the end of the month, and with him goes his furniture. Fortunately, we've stumbled upon some amazing quality couches to replace his and won't go wanting. This place definitely feels like home, and we've decided to stay here for a while. We've been doing some discussing of marriage and kids and the future. Things are just incredible here. She makes the bad days better and the good days perfect.

The "cleaning system" job I had started a while back turned into a full fledged career. I ended up selling so well that the company offered me the opportunity to open my own branch, which I've done. I now have a few employees at Healthy Spaces (one of whom being Sarah) who help quite a bit. I have a long way to go before the business is where I'd like it to be, but it's a fantastic start. There's a lot of uncertainty just because it's so new to me and I haven't fully ramped up yet. I'm not worried though. I believe in the support team I have, and I believe in my own abilities.

Not sure why I felt like updating, but I did. And that's all I've got.

Reinventing

I haven't been feeling inspired to write in here much lately. I'm not sure whether it's being so busy (but let's face it, I've always made time before), or just a supreme lack of motivation. If it's the latter, I at least know it isn't spilling over into other portions of my life. I'm feeling more motivated than ever when it comes to my relationship, work, and life in general. I've pushed myself to the limit and back. I feel incredible about my life.

So what has caused this lack of inspiration? I don't know.

What I know is I'm feeling a change coming on. I'm feeling ready to push forward in a way I never have before. With that, I may be taking another break from TTTM. My fellow blog buddies all seem to be taking a vacation or getting too busy to continue to write and I miss their wonderful words of encouragement. Well this is my stepping out.

I'll probably be back.

The Possimpible

Strange. I don't know why it is, but I'm having a super insecure day today. Yes, ladies, guys get insecure too. It's the most random thing right now, and it's not one particular thing I can pinpoint. I've just been feeling like I'm not awesome today. Things are going super awesome lately, and I'm stoked about it. Just felt like putting it out in the universe. Anyone else ever sometimes have a day where you just feel unattractive, unwanted, whatever?

This is not a revolution 'til we say it is

Ah, contentment. It's a strange feeling to have. Generally I'm on a rampage of unsteadiness and get lost trying to balance my world. Right now I don't feel that at all. I love the place I've arrived in the past few weeks.

For starters, I've begun a new job that I'm absolutely crazy about. Basically I give demonstrations of a really cool home cleaning product that helps with allergies and asthma in peoples' homes. I can't believe I'm in sales again, but this is so much better than any other sales job I've had. People ask me to buy. They love the presentation and I get paid super well for what I'm doing. It's really a breath of fresh air to actually make some good money for once. There's a ton of room for advancement too. If I keep up the pace I'm working at, I could have my own office in a few months. MONTHS. How crazy. Right now I'm the top sales guy in my office and I'm heading up the ranks in the country. I'm hoping things stay steady or continue to improve.

Because of that, I'm in the market for a new car. Mine is so close to its death bed. It makes noises that would scare the most talented of mechanics, and my job requires me to drive all over the place. I really can't take the chance of my car breaking down in the middle of nowhere and missing a possible sale. So, I've been looking, but haven't quite found what I want yet. I'm not in any super rush, but I'd like to find something as soon as possible. Ideally I'd love to get a few year old Jetta. I've found a few cars in my price range that would be suitable, but this is going to be a big purchase and I want to LOVE what I get.

Things in the apartment are better than ever. Sarah and I are learning how to live together. I know when she needs her own time and she knows when I need mine. Sometimes we eat dinner together and other times we do our own thing. My confidence in us continues to grow. It's amazing how every day we learn more and more about each other. The dynamic is so different now that we live together. We can be together without being up eachothers asses. We can spend time together while doing different things. I'm completely in love with living with her. Our apartment is really coming along. We haven't painted yet, but we've finished most of the unpacking. I put up a few pictures that she wasn't ecstatic about in the bathroom and she was kind enough to let them stay. Life is really good right now.

The band is in a little stagnant period. Our record came out and got mild numbers. We haven't been getting any tour offers worth pursuing, so we're just doing random one off shows. We have a cool show in Syracuse with Story Of The Year, which should be cool. A few college shows to help pay off band debt. Other than that, we're taking a much needed break. We still talk constantly and are making plans for fall, but we're taking a little time to focus on the rest of our lives. It's actually great. It's going to take a lot of stress off of the next time we tour. Our biggest problem is we need to find a new van since ours broke down in Long Island a few weeks ago.

Lucky we're in love in every way

Life has been a big ball of complete insanity lately. I haven't had even a few minutes to sit and type a blog entry like this one. I suppose that's a good thing. It means I'm not stagnant. Not wasting away the hours, even though at times I definitely feel like I am.

Sarah and I moved in together. We have a cozy little apartment with my best friend in my favorite neighborhood. It's far from being done, but we've made significant progress in the week we've lived there, especially considering this week was our cd release week. More on that later. We still want to paint the living room a beautiful color called "Fresh Melon" by Glidden (go check it out). We're missing a few end tables. Our room isn't fully unpacked and my side of the closet looks like a mess. But all of that considered, we're stoked on how it is coming along. It's incredible to spend every night with her. We've had our little spats and moved on from them quickly. In a strange way, this is proof to me that this is meant to be. Normally, fights in relationships with me signal the end. I don't handle it well. But with her, it's worth working out. I have the desire to confront issues when they arise. We work them out fairly quickly and move right along. She's gone through one of the toughest periods in life that someone can go through and we've gotten through it together. I fall harder for her every single day.

Our new cd came out on Tuesday. It's been selling incredibly well. I'm super anxious to see how the online sales and in store sales have gone. We won't hear until Wednesday, so suffice to say we will be freaking out until then. First week numbers are the most important in a band's career. We've pushed so hard hoping for success. Our whole team is so supportive, and I can't believe the reviews it's been getting. People are super positive about it and I'm incredibly grateful. Now it's time to figure out what's going on with the next tour!