Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Day Three: Eight Ways To Win Your Heart

1. Be yourself. If I'm spending my (short and valuable) free time with you, it's because I want to be with YOU, not some person pretending to be someone I want to be around.

2. Be honest. Lying and dishonesty will instantly make me hate you.

3. Don't keep too many secrets from me. A few is okay, but again, if you're the person I'm sharing my life with, I want to know as much of you as I can, because chances are you'll know all of me.

4. Compliment me when you can, but only if you mean it.

5. Tell me when I'm doing something wrong or something that you don't like. It might bum me out for a second, but then chances are I'll do everything I can to fix it.

6. Sit on the couch with me watching tv or movies. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it's one of my favorite things to do. It's calming and just takes my brain away from the chaos that my life usually is.

7. Talk to me about the future. What you want it to be, what I want it to be, and what it will be like together.

8. Eat with me. I LOVE to eat.

Day Two: Nine Things About Yourself

Oh God, how do I come up with nine things...

1. I have a love/hate relationship with music. One day I'm completely in love with everything about music. The next I can't find a single song I want to listen to. One day I would kill to go to a solid show like the ones I went to when I was a kid. The next day shows make me want to stab myself in the eye with a spoon.

2. I am insanely passionate about business and personal finance. It's not even a money thing. I think it's more of a competitive spirit/seeing something grow kind of thing. It's just incredible to be able to take something and build it.

3. I am head over heels madly in love with a girl who just over a year ago I never thought I'd get the opportunity to confess my feelings for.

4. I go from super confident to self-conscious about 30 times a day.

5. I am very much a Dave Ramsey fan. I have almost all of his books, financial peace university, etc. I listen to his podcasts. I go to his events. Love it.

6. There are about a bazillion things I want to learn to do. Dance, snowboard, golf.

7. My obsession with energy drinks and soda is probably the most unhealthy thing I've EVER had.

8. I like wearing dress clothes much more than casual clothes. I just feel more confident and occasionally sexy in them.

9. I've eaten Taco Bell about 980432748798 times, thanks to tour.

Day One: Ten Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People Right Now

1. You are the best thing that's EVER happened to me.
2. I wish we hung out more often.
3. I truly hope you don't regret your decision.
4. You better do well.
5. Please don't take everything.
6. You've become my best friend, and you'll never know how much I appreciate that.
7. You should probably get back to me, it's super unprofessional that you're not.
8. Get your product in my belly.
9. You're ridiculously adorable and I love the hell out of you.
10. Hurry up and get here so we can leave!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Go listen to Greene Reveal

I am so beyond lucky to have an amazing understanding girlfriend. In the wake of such stupidity on my part, she's been so wonderful about it all.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

They're buried inside a box under the stairs

I fucked up the other day. I had one thought and intention in my head and what came out of my mouth turned out to be hurtful and ignorant. Very VERY few things in my life do I regret. This is one of those things. If I had the choice to go back and take the words out of existence and forget their very meaning I would. But I can't. And now, because of how inconsiderate I can be, the love of my life is hurting. She hurts every day because I'm too stupid to realize the weight of my words. I only meant to mention something to demonstrate my unprovoked insecurity, but it ended up causing pain.

So now I'm left with this: what's done is done and I can't go back and change it. So all I can do is be thoroughly grateful that she's chosen to stick with me, even with what I've done. Even with the hurt she endures daily. Even with the fact that I can't tell her I love her, or think she's beautiful, or want nothing more than to share every moment of my life with her, without it bringing up ideas that those words aren't hers.

I wish I could give her even the slightest sense of how intense my love for her is. I would trade anything for her to know that she's the only one who gets my love. The only one I could even dream of spending each and every day of my life with. And that she alone is the love of my life.

I feel incredibly heartbroken right now, and I just have to give her time.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Holy bored

I am super bored right now. Work is obnoxiously slow. My people are all out in the field trying their damndest. I've got no appointments. It's driving me nuts. That's all, just wanted to rant for eight point five seconds.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Things and more things

Hello old blog of mine. It's been a long time. I've been away spending my life full of love, business, smiles, and insanity. Things have been turned upside down in so many ways, both positive and negative. Where to start...

Let's start with the obvious and ongoing most significant piece of my life - my other half. The love of my life, my world, my joy, my reason to smile every day - Sarah. Things with us are just as I always hoped they'd be. We've experienced more and more of what our life is and could be together and we've fallen further in love with that life. Our apartment is wonderful. We've re-arranged the living room a few times and I think we found just the arrangement that works. Unfortunately, our roommate is moving out at the end of the month, and with him goes his furniture. Fortunately, we've stumbled upon some amazing quality couches to replace his and won't go wanting. This place definitely feels like home, and we've decided to stay here for a while. We've been doing some discussing of marriage and kids and the future. Things are just incredible here. She makes the bad days better and the good days perfect.

The "cleaning system" job I had started a while back turned into a full fledged career. I ended up selling so well that the company offered me the opportunity to open my own branch, which I've done. I now have a few employees at Healthy Spaces (one of whom being Sarah) who help quite a bit. I have a long way to go before the business is where I'd like it to be, but it's a fantastic start. There's a lot of uncertainty just because it's so new to me and I haven't fully ramped up yet. I'm not worried though. I believe in the support team I have, and I believe in my own abilities.

Not sure why I felt like updating, but I did. And that's all I've got.