It doesn't matter what you're doin, just keep it movin

Almost done with tour!
Losing motivation to write in this blog. This may be the end.

This one's hopes won't die like the others

So, I'm having a blast on tour, but I'm feeling a bit homesick today. Being out on the road is tiring. It makes you miss some degree of normalcy. I'm dying to hold Sarah in my arms right now and tell her how happy she makes me. I ache for a night in my comfortable bed. The idea of a home cooked meal is the sexiest thing in the world... besides that beautiful girlfriend of mine. Tour has something like eleven days left and then I get to spend a wonderful six days in Florida with Sarah. I'm recording a new solo ep and she's accompanying me on the trip. It's going to be quite amazing. We're going to get a hotel for one of the nights so we can spend an entire night wrapped up in eachothers' loving arms. Once that's done I'm home for a few weeks, some of which I'll be working.

Whatever the case, I'm loving life right now. Most things seem to be going how I want them to be. I'm pretty broke, but working when I get home should cure some of that. Plus Sarah and I started an internet business together. It's having a bit of a rocky start, but I'm confident once it gets going it will provide us a decent bit of money for the apartment we're going to get in August.

Tomorrow starts the week of California. I adore California. It's an amazing state full of character. Each individual city is a unique experience and I'm so excited to be in so many of them. And then, the thing I'm most excited for, PORTLAND. Oh man. The vegan capitol of the US. I'm going to the Herbivore Store to spend pretty much the last of my money. Couldn't be any more stoked.

Yeahhh...

Anyone still reading? Haven't seen comments in a while. That is all :)

Tell me that you'll hold on

We're stuck in Diamond, IL. Last night on the drive from Chicago to St. Louis, our van started shaking crazily and refused to go over 20 MPH. We took it to a shop here in lovely Diamond and waited anxiously to discover what was wrong. Turns out there's a problem with the exhaust valve and the manifolds are cracked. Awesome. A $2,000+ repair. This puts us in a terrible spot. We have to miss two of the shows on the tour and going $2,000 in the hole is a brutal loss. Every day I have to remind myself that this will pay off. It's a test to see how bad we want it and we continue to prove it. We've gone through most of the difficult things that touring bands go through and we're still here, somehow. I love the dudes in my band for persevering when so many others would have quit. We can't quit. Not now. We've worked too hard and invested everything we have into this band to give up now.

Sarah is the ultimate supporter. It makes my heart beat wildly to know she's there feeling every bit of pain that I feel. This morning when she woke up and read my texts that updated her on our misfortune, her heart sunk. Her mood mimicked mine. She's an angel. Even though I'm states and states away from her and even though she has to wait weeks and weeks to see me, she still urges me on. She supports my dreams and tells me never to give up. When we succeed, she rejoices and when we fail, she hurts with us. She's everything I've ever wanted and I couldn't be more grateful. We talked for about two hours last night and I loved every minute of it. I still can't get over how much I enjoy just hearing her voice. I feel like we share every piece of our lives together. We've been together for only a month yet feel like we're so much a part of each other. She's so much of the reason I keep pushing on.

So here we sit, waiting for our van to be fixed. Watching tv, messing around online, and being generally unproductive. The internet at our hotel room is painfully slow, so there won't be any movie watching. I've done as much band business as I can, so that's the end of it. I'll be finishing my awesome UFC book tonight and that leaves me stuck. Well... here's to doing what we truly love!

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Random advertisement for our tour posted today. Sorry about that. Haha. Let me explain.

Yesterday we were walking around a mall in Florida when I got a call from our manager. He doesn't call often (usually texts or emails), so I knew it had to be a big deal. I answer the phone and he says "TIM... IMPORTANT!" I'm stoked at this point. He told me we had to be in Toledo, OH in two days to join up with the tour with Jonny Craig. WHAT?! Jonny Craig is amazing, and this tour is the biggest one we've ever had the opportunity to be on. It's such a huge deal for us. We freaked out for a bit, then headed on the 15 hour drive north.

Now we're in our hotel in Kentucky waiting for the tour to start and I'm anxious as all get out. We've spent the majority of the day swimming, hanging in a hot tub, and promoting for the tour. I think it goes without saying how much I miss Sarah. I know she's struggling sometimes with me being gone, but I gave her good news today. After this tour, I'll be off for about three weeks. She'll be with me in Florida for some of it. This was unexpected. I'm very happy.

Holy huge tour

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03/13 - Toledo, OH @ Headliner's
03/14 - Elgin, IL @ Mad Maggies
03/15 - St. Louis, MO @ Fubar
03/16 - Tulsa, OK @ The Marquee
03/19 - Houston, TX @ Meridian
03/20 - San Antonio, TX @ White Rabbit
03/21 - Dallas, TX @ The Door
03/22 - Lubbock, TX @ Jake's
03/24 - Albuquerque, NM @ Launchpad
03/25 - Phoenix, AZ @ The Old World Brewery
03/26 - San Diego, CA @ Soma Sidestage
03/28 - Modesto, CA @ Modesto Virtual
03/29 - Stockton, CA @ Plea For Peace Center
03/30 - Fresno, CA @ Starline
04/01 - San Francisco, CA @ Bottom Of The Hill
04/02 - Orangevale, CA @ The Boardwalk
04/03 - Portland, OR @ Satyricon
04/04 - Seattle, WA @ El Corazon

I wanna do what bunnies do with you

I miss Sarah quite a bit right now. I'm sitting in a bar in Myrtle Beach waiting to play a show for a bunch of drunk people who don't really care that I'm going to play. They'd much rather listen to a Godsmack cover band or something. That's okay. Paying dues still. It makes the end goal so much sweeter if we meet it. Paying dues is definitely something we're used to and almost comfortable with.

Tonight after the show we're taking the 8 or so hour drive to Tallahassee, FL. I was hoping to see my friend from www.unorthodoxhome.com but I don't think we're going anywhere near her. Bummer! I'm so excited for Tallahassee. We have so many awesome friends down there. Our merch guy, Gary, and I are getting How I Met Your Mother tattoos while we're down there. I'm getting the yellow umbrella with a pineapple. So stoked! I'll probably actually party this time. We've been at a bar for the last two days but I really haven't felt like partying.

I've noticed that I don't notice girls anymore. I mean I notice them as other people in a room, but since I've been with Sarah, other girls are invisible. I don't see them as attractive or unattractive. I'm so absolutely infatuated (in a good way) with Sarah that I don't even care about anyone else. This is usually how I know if I'm in something legit. If I'm in a relationship and I look at other girls, it means it's not gonna work out. Sarah is still handling me being gone so incredibly well. We have phone dates when we can, but she doesn't freak if we don't get to. We text when she's not working. She makes sure she's not bothering me at shows (she never is) and I make sure I'm not interrupting her friend time. It's the most perfect situation I've ever had while on tour. I'm pretty crazy in love with her.

I wonder if you guys are getting sick of reading about this. Haha. I don't have much on my mind other than this band and Sarah. I'd really like to find a new book to read while on tour, but I'm very particular about what I read. I only like business/personal development books. I read all of my blogs (Dating Is My Hobby, Unorthodox Home, Snippets and Rambles, This Is Not A Heart, and I Will Teach You To Be Rich), but in terms of offline reading, I don't have much. I just found out that Ramit Sethi is giving a speech at SXSW, which we're playing, but it's a few days before we get there. Damn!

"I love you"s run into eachother

Sarah and I (that's her name, by the way... Sarah) are moving so quickly. I'm crazy for her and she's crazy for me. Normally I'm the biggest freak about people taking things slow and waiting, but being this sure is foreign to me. We've fallen headfirst into something neither of us expected to find and neither of us has any desire to slow down.

I picked her up Saturday night after our last home area show. It was a super late night and she kept telling me to wait until Sunday morning, but I had to see her. Nothing could have stopped me. I gathered up the very last bit of energy I could find and drove to her house. The night was wonderful, as all of them are. We didn't stay awake very long once we got back to my house. I adore waking up to her beautiful face next to mine.

Sunday was a day of running around and making sure everything was ready for tour. She got to meet my dad and stepmom who absolutely love her. I couldn't have asked for a better reception from them. We watched some random television and discussed (in great detail) movies she'd never seen. She sat through it like a champion. Afterward, we went back to my mom's house and had dinner with her. She gets along with my mom so well. It's one of the things we're so excited about - we love eachother's families. On a drive out to pick up some last minute things from Wal Mart, she started to get quiet. She was looking up at the stars a lot and I caught her staring at me a few times. I knew she had something on her mind. We had many things to talk about and giggle about Sunday night, and stayed up as late as possible to milk every last second together. She cried a little about me leaving, but did an amazing job of assuring me that she is confident she can make it through. I've never felt this solid that a girl means what she says.

Monday morning rolled around and we both woke up moving slowly. We knew we'd be saying goodbye for a month and neither of us was ready to do so. As I finished packing the last of my things and she sat by watching and dreading my departure, I knew I had finally found a good reason to come home. We laid there cuddling eachother for a minute and in our usual joking fashion, she held her arms apart and said "I hate you this much!" To which I replied, holding my arms apart, "I love you this much!" It was a big deal for me. She looked at me, almost in disbelief, kissed me, and told me she loved me too. It was a little bit of a relief hearing her say it back. It's always scary to put that huge statement out there... not knowing if you'd get it in return. But I got it back, and I know she meant it.

She's been handling tour very well. I know it's difficult and she's been lonely, but I'm grateful to have her staying strong. I miss her every single day. I know that in less than four weeks, I'll be coming home to her. We have a week in Florida planned as soon as I get back and I can't wait to spend all that time with her.

In band news, I'm in Cleveland, OH right now. Tour has been interesting so far. The first show was at one of the coolest clubs I've ever played. It was three stories, two bars, and monitors everywhere so you could see the band. Not a huge amount of people, but we sold plenty of merch and it got us to Cleveland. When we got out of the venue, we realized that our trailer was messed up. We drove to Cleveland and went through two days of pure hell with it. Finally, after the most stressful tour start ever, we got it fixed up for significantly less than we thought. I'm definitely feeling better about everything. Our show tonight was solid. We packed the Hot Topic pretty full and sold more merch. We spent the night making pasta and watching tv. Tomorrow we're off to another stop in Ohio before making the trip down south. I can't wait to see our friends in Tallahassee.

Time for phone date night with the girlfriend.

Love love love love

We're back on tour so posts will be few and far between. xoxo